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I’m walking away from something that was good, safe... and not fully me anymore.
Final edition - Women in Tech community newsletter #15
This is my last Women in Tech newsletter.
I’m leaving a career that worked.
After 9 years in AI, I’ve decided to step away and fully move into my work as a coach and mentor.
And this isn’t coming from frustration or things not working.
Quite the opposite.
I’ve had the chance to work with incredible clients.
I’ve been surrounded by kind, smart people.
And I built something I felt comfortable and secure in.
From the outside, it all made sense.
Which is exactly what made this decision so hard.
Because I’m not leaving something that was bad.
I’m leaving something that was good… but no longer fully me.
What feels a bit surreal to me…
is that not too long ago, I wrote about women leaving tech.
And now I’m one of them.
And I can’t even say there was a clear reason.
I didn’t hit a clear breaking point.
I just lost the spark.
The curiosity that used to be there.
The excitement.
The feeling of being fully engaged.
It slowly faded.
And for a while, I kept going anyway.
Until I realized:
that quiet loss of aliveness… matters.
This didn’t happen overnight.
It was a quiet shift.
A feeling that slowly became harder to ignore:
this isn’t fully it anymore
And I think many people experience this at some point.
You build something that works.
You become good at it.
People know you for it.
And it makes sense to stay.
But internally…
you feel less connected.
And for a long time, I tried to rationalize that.
“It’s a great career”
“It’s stable”
“I should be grateful”
And I was.
But at the same time…
something in me was getting louder.
Until I reached a point where I had to be honest with myself.
Not about what looks good.
Not about what makes sense.
But about what actually feels true and alive.
And the truth was:
I didn’t want to keep building something I no longer felt connected to.
Even if it was safe.
Even if it worked.
So I made a decision.
To leave what is comfortable… and move toward what feels alive.
Over the past years, alongside my work, I’ve already been walking a different path.
Working with women around:
– self-trust
– identity
– embodiment
– and actually living what feels true and alive for us
And again and again I’ve seen:
It’s not that women don’t know what they want.
It’s that they don’t trust themselves to choose it.
So this is the work I’m stepping into fully now.
Not because I have everything figured out.
But because I’m living it.
A new chapter is starting.
I feel excited.
I feel happy.
…and yes, also a bit scared 😅
Which probably means I’m exactly where I need to be.
I don’t believe we have to stay who we’ve been just because it worked before.
And maybe this speaks to something in your life too.
Not necessarily leaving your job.
But that quiet feeling of:
something here is no longer fully aligned
You don’t need to have it all figured out.
But you do need to start being honest with yourself.
If this is something you’re currently navigating…
this is exactly the space I’m holding now.
Spaces where we don’t just think about change but actually move through it.
If you feel called to explore this more deeply, you can reach out to me.
One last thing: This will be my last newsletter in this form.
If you’d like to stay connected and follow this next chapter, you can find me here:
I am going to do a 21 day live challenge talking and sharing more about what I am going through in this transition on Facebook, YouTube and IG.
The highs and lows of building something you are truly passionate about.
And before I close this chapter here:
Thank you for being here. 🙏 💛
Thank you for reading, for being part of this space, and for walking this journey with me in whatever way you have.
It truly means a lot 💛
Love,
Verena ✨
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Leaving AI After 9 Years - choosing what feels true and alive | Me - Video
I recorded a video sharing more about this transition and how this all unfolded for me.